was a success.

"Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower."
-Hans Christian Andersen

Tabs <3

Okay so tonight is the premiere of our play that we've been working on. It's called Francine's Will and it's pretty darn hilarious. The drama crew did a great job and are still doing fantastic. We did two run-through's yesterday and they were awesome. Today is the big cahuna deal though. The first night. Opening night. I'm nervous. Super nervous and I'm not even going on stage. I'll just be helping with lights, getting everyone dressed, hair, make-up, and moving furniture around during blackouts an intermission. So why am I this nervous? I have no idea. I'm all antsy and all over the place. 


I'm sorry but I just really had to get all that out. I have to go get ready and what not for the day ahead. Just wanted to get on here and vent a little before I head over there. I'll try and write after the play. Have a great and un-nervous day everyone!

Tabs <3

Love is patient and kind, Love is not jealous, conceited, proud or boastful, it is not arrogant, selfish, irritable or rude. Love does not keep a record of wrongs. Love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth, Love never gives up, and its faith, hope and patience never fail. Love is eternal. 
- 1 Corinthians 13

I want all of you to try going throughout this day remembering that their is indeed someone who loves you more than anything in this world. Someone who died on the cross for you. Someone who died for your sins, and also for mine. Someone who is more powerful than any being on Earth or anywhere else for that matter. Someone who wants you to always be thankful and happy. Someone who is right there by your side when you feel lonely or upset. Someone whose  love is eternal and it never fades. Never. That someone is God. His love is everlasting and he continuously wants you to know that he loves you. He is always there for you! 

Another long day ahead for me. Leaving in about an hour and a half for the last rehearsal for the play, which means I won't get back until pretty late. Tomorrow is the big day and i"m shaking in my little socks. So many things can go wrong, especially backstage. Yesterday I tripped over two chairs while trying to make it to the light switches. Hopefully today there are absolutely no flaws, and I can breathe easily after all this is over. 

Must go now, and prepare to take some stuff with me. Like large amounts of food. By the way, have a wonderful afternoon! Smell the wonderful spring breeze, and feed a squirrel. Just don't get to close, they bite really hard. I know this from experience. 

Happy Wednesday,
Tabs <3

You know that feeling of just being drained? Of having no more strength left in you to do anything at all? Feeling like your going to fall asleep any second while waiting in line for your third cup of coffee? That's how I feel right now. I've been helping out at my old school with their drama play where I used to be stage manager. My best friend is now stage manager, and my other best friend is president, which technically still makes me apart of the crew. The last play of the year is on Thursday, so we're in definite overdrive. It's totally worth it of course, but rather tiring. I plan on spending the rest of my day re-watching Psych episodes and eating cheesy popcorn, most likely not falling asleep until about 2:00 AM again. Ah, what a life I have.

It was an amazing California 70 degree day, filled with t-shirts and high gas prices as far as the eye can see. The birds were chirping, the leaves were rustling, squirrels were running about, neighbors were yelling at children to get off their perfectly manicured lawns, yes, spring has certainly arrived here. Soon the ice cream man will start driving by at his usual 50 mile per hour speeds, and then everything will be complete. It's one of the most wonderful times of the year. I'm already preparing to pull out my flip flops and sunglasses. 

I was looking at some quotes today, and I found one that I really like. It is incredibly true, especially when quoting movies and such.

"When I quote others I do so in order to express my own ideas more clearly." -Michel de Montaigne

True. Very true. Have a wonderful night everyone and wash behind your ears.

Tabs <3

Dwight is my plant. Yes, I indeed named my plant. You tend to get rather bored when you're at home every single day of you're life, and you need some company. In my case, a plant works pretty well. I decided to buy Dwight a few months ago at our local Home Depot. He was the biggest of them all, his leaves were so green and lustrous that I couldn't pass him up. We were truly meant to be together. I had to have him. However, he was tangled around every other plant that was close to him. When I say tangled, it looked like each of his branches was in a death match with the other plant's branch, and it was really intense. This meant some untangling had to be done on my part. So there I stood, wrangling the branches apart and muttering the whole time to myself (I might even broke into a sweat) until about fifteen minutes later, Dwight was free. After that was over with I proudly strutted to the cash register, paid for him, smiled a little to excitedly at the cashier, and hurriedly made my way to the car. I didn't think of the name Dwight until I finally made it home. I have yet to buy him a "Hello My Name Is..." sticker and slap it on the side of his pot, but I will soon. He is growing some new leaves at the moment and I'm rather happy. Ecstatic actually. Which is why I'm rambling. I apologize.

It's also 12:04 here on the West Coast and I'm unable to sleep, looking for a cheap plane ticket from LA to Sacramento, and I'm sadly out of cookies. Nonetheless, I shall continue my search for said plane ticket and water Dwight in a few minutes. 

"You can tell the size of your God by the size of your worry list. The longer your list, the smaller your God."

Whenever I seem to worry about something, I think about that quote and remember that my destiny is in the hands of God and not mine, so why am I worrying? He knew what my future was going to be like before I was even born. All I have to do is have faith in Him and leave everything in His hands because I know he is going to take care of me no matter what I go through. He doesn't give me any more than I can handle. I want you guys to know that God is always with you. Whether if you're a believer or a non-believer, God loves you. He loves you with all His heart. When your worried or stressed, I want you to think of this quote. Just give it some thought, take a deep breathe, and remember that God is right there beside you. 

I think it's time I finally turned in. Or at least try to turn in. If not, I'll just keep myself occupied with Twitter which seems to work. Either way, good night and sweet dreams dear world. 

Tabs <3

One of those days.


The outside world is a pretty dangerous place. We underestimate it quite a bit, yet some of us also fear it. We fear what it might create, what it might throw at us. We fear what we might run into, we fear that we might get hurt. Do you realize that I used the word "might" in each of those sentences? Those things might happen, there is no guarantee. Which is why I am here to tell you that you are not alone. You aren't the only one fearing what the outside world has in store. I'm scared for my life. Do you know how many bad things are out there? I mean just thinking about them is making me feel rather nauseous and achy, but then...well...I get over it. I put the bad thoughts aside, and think about all the wondrous things that the outside world can brings to us. Nature, laughter, smiles, happiness, a whole array a feelings that we most certainly cannot feel if we are stuck in our fears. Fears that are just completely ridiculous. That are mind blowing to even be afraid of. So, go outside :) Dance in the rain. Feel the sunshine on your face. Walk five miles aimlessly to a Walmart. Mow your lawn. Get your neighbor's kid to mow your lawn while you sit on a lawn chair and drink lemonade. Just do something. Revel in the fact that we are actually able to go outside and enjoy our lives. Even now. Actually, you know what? Go finish reading this post on your roof or porch. If your excuse is "It's too cold outside" or "It's raining", then I have some good news for you. Put on a couple of sweatshirts which are usually known to keep warm from the cold, that might help. Also, they created these things are umbrellas. Magnificent invention. Grab one and go outside!

My twenty-four liquid diet ended today (I did it wrong the first time so I had to start over), and even though I can eat actual food now, my stomach is still feeling weird. I'm taking it easy on the food and praying that my stomach is getting at least a little bit better. It's been pouring rain here in our wonderful city for about four days straight now. I'm craving any possible chance of sunshine and check the forecast every hour to see if anything has changed. Sure, I love rain. Do I love it to the point that most of our court is flooded? Not so much. Even when I see just a slight sliver of sunshine peaking through the clouds, I hang on to it as if I'll never see the light of day again. Who knows? I might not. There's quite a long time until tomorrow comes, and you never know what might happen. 

However, rainy weather deserves some rainy weather movies. Don't you agree? Even if you don't agree, I'll probably still watch a movie. By the way, the title of my post is actually a song. It's called The Lost Get Found by Britt Nicole. I Thought it was appropriate for the topic of going outside. If you don't understand what it has to do with that, think about it. It'll come to you. 

I'm also liking Twitter quite a bit. Interesting.

"I'm banana's for you!" (off a valentine card),
Tabs <3

I am not particularly fond of them. Yes, I know they practically save our lives and what not, but after a lifetime of visiting them often, you get sick of the plastered smiles and overly enthusiastic hello's. I have been going to the doctor on a regular basis for as long as I can remember and have probably also taken every medication known to mankind to get rid of my sicknesses. Yes, I'm a rather sick girl. I always have been since I lack a proper immune system. So you might be able to understand when I let out an audible sigh when the subject comes up. The only doctor I am actually fond of is God.

Nevertheless, I've seen every type of doctor there is. Foot, ear, stomach, eyes, you name it and I've been there. Pretty sad, right? Yeah, you could say that. Some of the doctor's I've seen were pretty decent, and others...not so much. There was this one doctor I had who constantly wore a really green ugly tie with black sheep all over it. However, these weren't just any ordinary black sheep. They looked incredibly mean. Their eyes were bulging out of their head and they were foaming at the mouth. It was rather scary for a little girl of about twelve years old. He also looked like one of those creepy surgeons out of the horror movie. Do you know which ones I'm talking about? The ones with the eerie red light behind them, the dramatic death music, the really zoomed in face, and twitching eye. Bad memories. 

Anyway I had a trip to my regular doctor today (she's awesome, not creepy in any way, shape, or form) and she put me like on this whole grain diet thing since my stomach isn't working properly and my intestines are upset. So in taking part of getting my stomach back to normal, she has put me on a twenty-four hour liquid diet. I personally didn't think it was going to be very difficult. I was wrong. I'm so incredibly hungry! My stomach has growled in more than fifteen different sounds and all I can think about is cupcakes. Cupcakes. Out of all the foods out there, that is the one that is on my mind continuously at the moment. Blah.

Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong.
-1 Corinthians 16:13

One of my favorite verses, I thought I'd share it :) time for me to get back to my liquid drinking and dreaming about cupcakes. Have a great night everyone.

Tabs <3

"Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever; wisdom and power are his. He changes times and seasons; he sets up kings and deposes them. He gives wisdom to the wise and knowledge to the discerning. He reveals deep and hidden things; he knows what lies in darkness, and light dwells with him."

Amen! I love that passage. It is absolutely amazing. Just like every other passage in the Bible. I'm trying to read the whole thing, and it's working out pretty well so far. I'm making extreme amounts of progress, and I'm pretty sure it's my favorite book of all time. It's a pretty good read, and also fantastic to live by. 

EXTREME amounts of rain going on here. I haven't seen the sun in a long time now, but it will come soon enough. I just need to have some patience. Apparently I'm gifted with it according to my family, so I should be fine. I wanted to write a few words in before I go back to reading and hit the sack.

Faith. This word can accumulate so many other words just to define it. Hope. Prayer. Believe. Patience. Understanding. Compassion. This is such a strong word and as such, when used, gives an unbelievable amount of power towards a situation. You can have faith in something or someone, which means that you believe they can achieve in a certain type of goal. You can have faith in nothing, or you can have faith in everything. However, each of us have some sort of faith in something. Whether it be that you have faith in God, like me, or that you have faith in what the future may hold for you, it keeps us going. Our faith is like a well oiled machine. It runs and it runs to the point that it's on overdrive and it just decides to never stop. Well yes, every once in a while we may have some maintenance problems and have to fix them, but then we're back to work having faith in whatever our hearts believe in. My point to all this rambling is that we should never give up on having faith. Our faith, is all that we have. We're running on it constantly and I want you guys to always have faith. No matter what. I don't know where I would be in life without faith, and the grace of God in my life. He truly is astounding in every way.

I just found some popcorn in my bed. Strange. The lights are flickering so I have a feeling that the power is going to go out pretty soon. Sweet. I just ran out of Vfusion fruit juice + Tea. Darn. Tomorrow is Sunday though. Woo!

Always faithful,
Tabs <3

Yes, I'm still awake. Doing what, might you ask? Well currently debating on whether or not to watch a fourth movie, but I'll hold off on that. Also extremely tired. I can't sleep though. It's just one of those nights. However, I might pass out asleep on my keyboard any second. It has been known to happen before.

With a Cup of Noodles in hand and my dignity still intact, I shall share with you an absolutely wonderful passage from the Bible.

"It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great. You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn."
Psalm 18:32-36

Nothing is impossible when you have God in your life! He is our strength, our courage, our happiness, and our hope. Everything that we have comes from Him, and for that we should give thanks. I try so hard to live everyday for God. It may seem hard sometimes, but I still believe in Him with all my heart. He helps me get through all the challenges I face in life, and I can feel his presence. Whenever something goes wrong or someone is yelling (which I really can't stand), I close my eyes and pray to God with all my heart. Then this sense of unbelievable calmness overcomes everything as I'm praying, and I can't help but smile because I know God is with me! He is with us all and loves us all.

I hope you all had a wonderful day. I hope you all are having an even more wonderful night. And I really hope you all are cherishing each wonderful moment. Time for me to finally sleep...well...maybe just one more movie.

Sleep well,
Tabs <3