When I say I’m a Christian, I’m not shouting I’m clean livin’. I’m whispering I was lost, now I’m found. When I say I am a Christian, I don’t speak of this with pride. I’m confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide. When I say I am a Christian, I’m not trying to be strong. I’m professing that I’m weak and need His strength to carry on. When I say I am a Christian, I’m not bragging of success. I’m admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess. When I say I am a Christian, I’m not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are far too visible, but God believes I’m worth it. When I say I am a Christian, I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches so I call upon His name. When I say I am a Christian, I am not holier than thou, I was just a simple sinner who received God’s good grace, somehow.

When I read this, I think about all of the mistakes that I've made in my life. I think about how sometimes I'm just not able to keep my head up because of how tired I am spiritually. I think about all my weaknesses and everything that I've been through in these past eighteen years that I've been on this earth. All the trials and sufferings that I've endured, and all the tears I have shed always leave a haunting memory. I've been through more than any child or teenager should have to go through. I've cried a lot and have felt as if there was nothing in this universe that could alleviate my pain. I've been scared to the point of no return. I've been there. 

However, there is only one that has always been there for me. He has seen each and every tear that has fallen from my eye. He was the one whose arms were wrapped around me, and protected me from the evil that is in this world. Whenever I feel like crying, I cry to Him alone because I know he hears my prayers. He knows what's in my heart. He knows what I'm going through and even though I'm incredibly broken, He has still blessed me so abundantly. I thank God each and every day for both the good and the bad because He does everything for a reason. He has a plan for each and every one of us. God is truly astounding in every way. 

I just had a feeling that I should write this. There are many people out there in this world that don't know God personally. They don't know Him for many different reasons. Whether they have different beliefs or just don't think He exists, they just don't believe. I know how it is personally, I didn't want to believe in God either because of all the problems that were going on around me. Whether you believe in Him or not, there is one thing you should know. He loves you. He always will. He's looking down upon you right now and smiling, and He wants you to come to Him. God is so good and so merciful. Whatever you may be going through, bring it to His attention. He can help you. Have faith in Him. I'm keeping you all in my prayers. Here's a thought to leave you with.

Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you. ~ Deuteronomy 31:6

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