When I woke up this morning, something didn't feel right in the pit of my stomach. Literally. The bathroom seems to be my best friend today and I'm surviving off of Powerade along with an incredibly large bottle of water. So far I've been able to down half a bottle but that's seriously pushing it. I can also feel dehydration coming on which sucks to the fullest level of suck. Pardon my French. Either this is the stomach flu, food poisoning, or there's a tiny alien growing in my stomach which is going to rip me to shreds in the near future. I'm sticking with stomach flu for now though.

Along with laying in bed and being completely useless, I've been thinking about the possibilty of writing again. I actually haven't written in a while due to the various happennings that are going on at home. Last night I picked up the journal my best friend bought me for Christmas, looked at the first blank page, and then put it back down. It will happen soon. I hope.

My laptop screen is now becoming dim. Before I go, I shall leave you with one of my favorite parts from the movie I'm currently watching by an awesome German caterpillar.
I hope you all are as excited about this day as Heimlich is about his wings.

Tabs <3
Christmas was on Sunday, and I planned on blogging that day but completely forgot. I think my memory is getting worse and that soon I'm just going to completely lose my sanity. Today, while making some amazing garlic bread, I took the tub of butter and was prepared to stick it in the cabinet while I grabbed the salt so I could put that in the fridge. Something is wrong with me. Either that or I've been watching James Roday as a fake psychic for way to long on television.

However, Christmas was pretty awesome. We actually had our entire family home for more than half of the day (my brother took off mumbling to himself, he worries me) which was actually kind of nice. We exchanged gifts, albeit they weren't wrapped but it's the thought that counts. My presents mostly consisted of chocolate which is honestly fine with me. I sadly devoured half of them though in under 30 minutes. The temptation was unbearable. We smiled, we laughed, we thanked God for another new day and the fact that He gave His only son for us to be born on this rock we call Earth. Short but blissful.

Is it weird that I'm actually missing my school's campus? College students aren't supposed to feel this way. I'm supposed to be relishing in the fact that I'm on winter break with absolutely nothing to do. I'm supposed to sleep in until 3:00 PM, wake up and throw in some Charlie Chaplin re-runs, and fall back asleep. Of course fitting in some junk food and a couple of bathroom breaks is a given, but sleep is the main thing. Wrong. I put all college students to shame. I miss my campus. I miss the bench that I sit on. I miss the tree I almost crashed into on the first day of classes. I miss the fact that I feel like I'm in a forest when I'm there. I also miss getting lost. I miss muttering to myself while I'm actually lost. I'm terrible, I know. It's as if I can already see the look of pity you're giving me.

That really isn't as pitiful as the fact of doing literally nothing over break. I should have a tshirt made that says "It's no use being my friend, I have no life anyway" and I could wear it when I'm grocery shopping. Not only am I not relishing in the fact that I'm on break, but I'm becoming even more pathetic by turning into a hermit. Someone please come over here and save me.

Due to the fact that I have a lot of time to spend at home now, I get to think about things a lot more. Some very random things. Have any of you realized that a safety pin is just a more advanced version of a paperclip? If you really compare the two together, there isn't much of a difference except that one is pointy, twisted a little more, and has a cap. I just thought I should share that. Is there anything odd that you guys have thought of lately? Share! I could use some entertainment.

Until later,
Tabs <3

It is so lovely outside! The weather is beginning to turn into half winter and half autumn mode, with just a touch of spring. I wish I could just give nature the biggest hug. However, I know that might end badly due to all the insects that don't usually like being disturbed by strange humans and their embraces. There is also all the prickliness that some trees and bushes have to offer so maybe admiring from afar would be a better idea.

Being the huge nature buff that I am, I tend to take pictures.
Doesn't that school bus in the background just take your breathe away? Or that fence! Oh goodness, my mind is blown. Alright all kidding aside, this was taken at my old high school where I frequently go to clear my mind and just aimlessly walk around for hours. I write there, I read, I snap pictures, I sing, I definitely do not dance, and I say a couple of prayers. Nature plays such a large part in my life because it brings me so much closer to God. He created everything and every single part of this beautiful rock we live on is continuously praising Him in all of His glory. He has blessed us beyond belief with all of the wonderful things that we are surrounded by.  Next time you see a flower, first of all don't hug it. You might squish a poor little bug to death or worse, the little bug will get angry and show you whose boss. Secondly, thank God for creating it. You will feel all fuzzy inside afterward.

I also have a feeling I'll be walking around a lot more lately since I have a two month break until the spring semester begins. I practically already had a non-existent life while I was in school, but winter break is just going to be really weird without anything to occupy my time. Some of you might be saying "GET A JOB!" Ahhh well you see, that is much harder than is sounds. Making a dollar two sounds absolutely terrific but there are circumstances which prevent that from happening. To all of you who have a job, right on. Don't do anything bad to make you possibly lose it. For example, creating a destructive toy robot out of the coffee machine or making fun of your boss at the water cooler while they are unknowingly standing behind you. Keep your job. Love it. Hug it. Just not to tightly.

Disreagarding the past few days and odd stomach nausea, things are slowly getting better around here. Well, we're mostly looking on the bright side of things so we're hoping they are getting better. I have faith everything will be alright, even through all these trials. At the end of this, I'll leave you with a quote that has literally kept me going. Whenever I get worried or feel as if nothing is going alright, I think of this and somehow feel a little better. I hope it will do the same for you.

You can tell the size of your God by looking at the size of your worry list. The longer your list, the smaller your God.

Have an awesome Friday!,
Tabs <3
While sitting here thinking about why in the world my stomach hates me so much, I realized that Christmas is only a little over a week away. It's scary how time passes by so quickly. I feel as if I just started college and am hyperventalating as I enter my first class because I was so nervous. However, each day that passes by is God's gift to us. Each day allows us to get closer to Him and to thank Him for everything that He has given us. Yes, sometimes it may be hard because life doesn't always go the way you plan. Trust me, I know. I had an absolutely terrible night that most likely also ruined the rest of my week. I don't want to go into the details but this life is indeed hard. However, we need to keep our head up and trudge on through all of these trials that we are facing. As long as we do that, we will always have a smile on our face and God's light shining throughout us for the world to see.

Last Wednesday was finals for me at school, and also the end of my first semester in college. I can't even believe it. Is this really happening? Would I be allowed to climb on our rooftop and scream at the top of my lungs with happiness without getting arrested? I sure hope so because the urge is unbearable. I also aced my finals, which I have God to thank for. I'm so excited that I just can't hide it. Well, actually I can hide it but I'm continuously smiling on the inside. Except for my stomach at the moment which spontaneously decided to become incredibly nauseous. Booo!

Other than those little tid-bits, life has been alright. The sun seems to still be shining and there's an incredibly cold breeze. The roses also still seem to be blooming but most of the leaves have managed to fall of the trees. Also, if it wouldn't be much to ask to whoever may read this, keep the Gherasim family in your prayers. We really need any help we can get right now, especially my brother. Most of you don't know that I live in a difficult household, but God has always managed to help us through tough times. We're just getting pretty weak and need some help to stay strong through these hard times. I would appreciate it very much and would be very thankful. If any of you need praying for, I would gladly help also.

Time to get back to this wonderful yet very cold day. I'm shaking in my little reindeer socks! Hopefully it's warm and sunny where you all are. If it isn't, then know you aren't alone. Tis the season to be freezing.

With love,
Tabs <3