there were a lot of spelling errors in my last post. That is so terrible and I apologize. No one most likely couldn't have even read that post which is very sad. I mean, I bet all of you can read though! I'm not saying you can't...I should just be quiet now.

Anyway I thought I would enlighten you with that very fantastic picture up above :) what if someone actually did that to you without even knowing it? I mean...okay, let me explain this. When people usually take a picture of you, you're usually prepared for it. You get into position, you smile, and everything comes out perfectly in the end. Just how you want it. However, have you ever had a picture of you taken unexpectedly? In my opinion, I think those are the pictures that truly capture who we are. How we are acting in our everyday lives, how everyone sees us. When you are prepared for the picture, no one can tell what you were actually feeling at that moment. What you were thinking or where your head was, all you have is that smile on and a pose. As if you were carved that way. What if you weren't really smiling on the inside? The unexpected pictures are the best ones (some might be goofy or a little embarrassing, I'll give you that much, but yet they always bring a smile to your face). 

Woke up not to long ago which is pretty sad since its almost 6:00 in the afternoon. It is raining and I had a pretty long night though, so I technically do have an excuse. Drinking some tea and looking like a train wreck, typical Saturday. Thinking about just going back to sleep or watching the second season of Psych. Whichever decides to come first. It is also raining outside, which is even better. I just love today.

“This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”

Tabs <3

I'm not quite good at things. Or anything for that matter besides writing. My life is sort of filled with unknowing, I am still finding my way in a lot of different aspects of my life. I wish I knew a lot more. People are being judged in different ways, which really upsets me sometimes. Give everyone a chance. I wish I was able to never get angry with anyone. I wish people would be able to understanding of the people around them. I wish I could talk better and be the person that I really want to be without being afraid. I wish that I wasn't so clumsy and that I didn't stutter when I talked. I wish that this economy would realize that peace is so much cheaper than war is.

I wish...

My wishing is nothing compared to what I already know. Everything seems to be based off of logic nowadays. I'm not saying that's a bad thing, but people should think outside the box more often. Be creative in their own thoughts! Color outside of the lines! Express yourself with every new detail that comes into your life! Use lots of exclamation points! Be something besides the logical self you are right now. Be what you wish you could be. It sounds hard, but just give it a shot.

I wish I could hug my computer, I really missed blogging. Sounds really weird but it's true (See i used the word wish again? I just might hug my computer). Doing a research paper at the moment though so I should stop procrastinating. Act on those wished darlings. I'll be back to check up on you.

Tabs <3



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So the thing is, I've been under the influence of the stomach flu for the past couple of days. Yes, I had just gotten over a cold. Didn't I say my immune system hates me? I think I did. This proves it. Well, at least I believe it was the stomach flu...hopefully it was and I don't have some disease that some odd person at school gave me :( odd people have odd diseases. Some odd people do at least. I'm not to sure about the rest of the odd population however. 

So for the past couple of days, I had been worshiping at the porcelain throne and making my way through the whole first season of Psych, which I sadly missed. Fantastic show by the way for those of you who haven't seen it. Couldn't stop laughing. At least, I laughed as much as my stomach allowed me too. I'm still pretty sick right now. Do any of you know any good cures for the stomach flu? I mean I know you can't cure the stomach flu, but is there anything to help it go away quicker? I'm in desperate need of help here :( sick under minded writer of a teenage child is in need of help and/or advice (help more preferable, advice also appreciated). Thank you ever so much!

I hope you all have a fantastic night (mind you, on the parental guardians computer so I have a restricted amount of typing allowed). Have a fantastic night. It's beautiful outside, go count the stars. Let the moon shine in through your window and listen to a slow song. Come on, move that couch and dance with the one you love! It'll be worth it, I promise.

Good Night,
Tabs <3

is going by even slower than usual. I also feel all weird and queezy for some reason, so I could be better. Supposed to be spending the night at my best friends place, but is that going to happen? I'm not to sure, that is going to be based on how well my stomache decides to cooperate.

School. It lets you hang out with your friends and learn the latest gossip on campus that is usual provided from those certain girls who are in everyone's business, but yet you have to do your work or else you fail. So it's basically friends and possible failure. Sounds a lot like life. Well life is full of failure due to all of the mistakes that you make, and school is a part of life. Whether if it is liked or not. That's just the way it is. School is basically your whole life, even if you aren't in school. Does that make any sense? When your just an infant, you learn all types of things. How to walk, speak, draw on the walls with crayons (still am tempted to do that), but yet you have an enviroment of learning. Then there is the whole elementary, middle, and high school experiences, then college, and then life. Yet, you still earn things in life. You will eventually get a job where you will learn new techniques in certain areas that you thought you wouldn't have to learn. You even learn more personal things, such as how to conduct yourself more properly around people, or a certain way to talk. You keep learning, so you never leave school. But yet we don't like it? Well at least me, I'm not a very large fan of school, I mostly like is since all my friends are here, and yes, I like learning. School and learning go together like peanut butter and jelly. Most people are alergic (I think I spelled that wrong) to nuts though, that's very sad. So then all they have is the jelly. Without the other part, it feels like something is missing. That empty feeling...sorry, i'm still hungry.

Today would've been John Lennon's 70th birthday, I'm glad even Google is celebrating this day :)

Great day outside, I really do feel like painting for some reason. I haven't painted in a really long time, but I just have that urge. I wonder if I still can paint, but I doubt it. I'm a painter (sort of), photographer, and a writer. How about that darlings? I'm rather proud of myself. Even though painting technically doesn't count, but it's still a thought. And it's always the thought that counts.

Tabs <3

and I am loving it! Autumn is in California. Finally! Yeeeeeeeeee! :D I have no idea what kind of sound that was, but it was a happy sound. I am not going insane. I hope. That most likely already happened a long time ago. But yes, it is cold outside. I am actually debating on going to get a sweater. I never knew this internal conflict would finally arrive, but it has. Do a happy dance for me, since I'm a little to sick to do one at the moment.

I don't know what it is about the cold. Maybe it's the fact that you have to ability to actually warm up. In the heat, you just have to keep taking off layers of clothing to the point that...well, you get the point. Or maybe your one of those conservative people that don't take off clothing, and stare crazy at the people who want to escape the heat. People like me. I'm not saying to take off all of your clothes in public! No. Please no. Spare us that visual. I also don't want you getting arrested on my account. It's just easier to escape the heat when in less clothing (and I don't mean no clothing at all) than it is to be dressed in jeans and a band shirt. This is going very oddly do far and I apologize.  Awkward. Sorry again!

Before I go....Yeeeeeeee!

Tabs <3
to the fullest level. This is also where I add my apologies for not blogging in ages, and the fact that I am sick. Again. Not really surprising to me since my immune system sucks and I'm going to die from a cold one of these days. It's as if the pain from my wisdom tooth growing in decided to move to the back of my throat, in my chest, and up my nose to create a monster sickness that I have been suffering from since Thursday. I am way behind on homework and half asleep at the moment since we ran out of DayQuil, so of course NyQuil decides to come into play. I was so out of it yesterday that I watched about 4 hours of Spongebob yesterday without even realizing it (I was also repeating their lines as the show was going). I also watched the Food Network channel from about 6:00 AM to about 11:00 AM. That is also very sad and pathetic. My large amounts of patheticness and sadness are very saddening to the human mind.

How has everyone's week been going? Please tell me "Tabby, my week has been good. No, not good, great!" No more sickness stories or broken down coffee machines! Well, actually those are the most interesting stories. So then tell me about your bad week? Or good week for that matter? One interesting thing that happened with me is that we "adopted" a stray cat. I named it Foofy and we're planning to get married soon. I was thinking the Bahamas for the honeymoon. Of course, I'm kidding. She is the cutest little fluffy animal and I keep calling her Fatty without even realizing it, even though she is incredibly skinny. And the reason why I said adopted in quotes is because she is a stray, my family found her while fishing the other day and I was at home absorbed in my Spongebob episodes. I'll try to get a picture of her soon and post it up. Now, your turn. Anything interesting happen this week?

Overcast weather :) it has me smiling like a moron and singing like an idiot. However, the more clouds that come, the louder I sing and the bigger that my smile gets. "I'm so excited! And I just can't hide it! I'm about to lose control, and I think I like it!"

*cough sneeze cough* Ciao and Sweet Dreams Sweeties,
Tabs <3