They are always the same. "As if you're on a new planet, breathing a new atmosphere.." So many new people, I just don't even know where to begin. Overcrowding classrooms, and most are inattentive to anything the teacher has to say. Same old stuff. Except I think I'm less interested to everything that is happening around me than anyone else. Just want to get through the day with my dignity and earphones still intact. Do too my quietness in classes where I know no one, it's sort of difficult for me to make new friends. I do try every once in a while to talk to someone, but then it goes to that really weird awkward silence. Sometimes I think it's easier to say something on paper, than it is to say it out loud. 


School is one of those things that I want to get through as painlessly as possible. Although that isn't always the outcome, I can always dream that it will happen. Or at least hope that it will happen.  Usually something goes wrong, and either the solution will be hard to discover, or won't be solved which leaves us to wonder at what could have been been, instead of what there already is in front of us. I'm not sure if that makes any sense. Does anything make any sense these days though? I think not, so maybe that sort of proves my point to my whole ranting.


Been busy the last couple of days, getting everything ready for school, doing all the AP homework I procrastinated from doing over the summer, all the usual stuff. Finally found a moment to just stop, relax, grab my favorite movie, and just take a deep breathe. And these few moments just feel amazing. Have an amazing Thursday everyone :)


Ciao,
Tabs <3
 
is becoming so much more addicting to me. Even if I don't have anything to do on there, i'm still on it. Is there something wrong with me? Have I entered a parallel universe in which I can't help but stay on facebook and "Like" things just to pass the time away? Who knows. Maybe I'm not the only one who does this. And there isn't much to do on facebook anyways. You have those cheesey quizzes that one can always take to "predict their future husband" or maybe "find out what your real age is" (okay I actually took that one and it said my real age was 64. I mean come on, really?). There is also the commenting on people's photos or statuses. If you want to get really intense, you can comment on someones "Wall". That one is always a last resort though. It's like you have to endure so much boredom on there, that you start looking at your own friends pages and decide "Hey, I haven't talked to him in a while, so by golly let's see what he's up too!" (okay the by golly isn't really necessary it sounds pretty cool if I do say so myself). So if your ever on facebook, search me. Tabita Gherasim. That's the name and don't you forget it. I might be autographing the next best seller at Barnes and Noble soon ;)


My insomnia is also continuing. I could not sleep last night so around 12:00 AM, I decided to get up and make a pasta dish. It took me all of about an hour but it was well worth the effort. It turned out amazing and, as always, made enough for two but again, as always, ate alone and saved the rest. Sometimes I wish I had someone to share my random midnight dishes with. But then I remember I'm not good at talking so there would be a lot of awkward silences and the chewing of food could probably be heard from a mile away and I mean, who wants that? It would be rather embarrassing and I would most likely be mortified. So maybe eating alone id technically a good idea....Somewhat? Maybe. The world holds an odd sort of people these days.


With my iPod in hand and a beautiful sunny day outside, I'm off. May you all have a fantastic evening full of happiness and wonderful adventures. May you enjoy every bit that this day has to offer and may you live in the moment that takes your breathe away. Smell a beautiful flower and dance to a song that makes your heart skip a beat. Then wake up tomorrow, and do it all over again.


Ciao,
Tabs <3







 
People tend to scare me. I mean, what is it with you guys? All...normal and what not. I don't know. People just get to me sometimes. Why? I also don't know again. People need to get a grip on things. Figure out what their lives are truly about and not focus on all the bad thing. Way to many people so that and someone should do something about it. Well technically, nobody can't do anything about it because it is in a person'd nature to be that way, whether if it is good or bad, we worry and do all the silly things us humans do to stay alive. Our day just isn't complete without worrying about one little pointless thing. Because that's just how we are and I don't understand any of it. Even though it clearly seems like I do, but I don't and it's just really frustrating. Ugh.


I am going to have to start interacting with people starting next Thursday, since that's when school starts. Also, got my schedule today. I don't think there has been a year where they have gotten all of my classes correct. This year wasn't any different. Except there wasn't an hour long line in which I had to wait in, which was absolutely amazing. Well this is my last year anyway and then I'm off to college. Out of California. And into Washington.


More people interaction. Gulp. 


If you read this and you live in Washington, please give me a heads up because I will be up there and know absolutely no one. And I'm actually terrified. Hence the gulp.


Tea and movies the rest of the night, and contemplating on getting photography for a class instead of yearbook (: yes?


Ciao,
Tabs <3









 
Yes I'm thinking I am one. It's about to be 12:00 AM here in the wonderful state of California and no, I have not gone to sleep yet. For some of you, this may be normal. For others (such as myself), it's really weird since I love sleep and sleep also tends to love me. We actually get along quite well. We tell each other stories and have tea parties. Just kidding. I think. Anyway I am far from tired and debating on which movie to watch. It's a tie between Alice (the Syfy version of Alice in Wonderland, watch it!) and The Perfect Man. Two of my all time favorite movies that i'm having a dilemma of choosing between. Why do some movies have to be so great?


Anyway back to me being sleep deprived. Is that normal? I mean yeah I'm a teenager and on summer vacation (big whoop) and it's usual to be staying up until 2 o'clock in the morning, but that's never happened to me. I find sleep kind of annoying now. A waste of time so to speak. I would rather be reading, writing, or watching a repeat of Psych. Which is an amazing show by the way. But is there anyone else out there whose sleep deprivation is kind of weirding them out? Speak now or forever hold your peace (well not forever...i hope). School starts next week so I need to get my sleeping pattern back in order soon. So maybe I'll just start counting sheep and hope for the best.


Oh yes, Friday was my birthday. Just another day of the year that I camped out in my backyard with my best friend and watch scary movies all night long (another night lacking sleep). I think she was more excited for my birthday than I was. I don't consider my birthday very special. Yes, it was the day I was born, I understand that, but celebrations are just blah. Cause to much problems. Better to just grab a carton of ice cream, stay home under some blankets, and watch a bunch of black and white movies. Now doesn't that sound like an absolutely fantastic night? Well it does to me, even if you disagree I'm sorry to say. 


Oh by the way, new page look and new picture. I'm not sure I'm liking it. I don't know. Is the insomnia just taking over? Possibly? Who knows.


Ciao and Good Night (maybe?),
Tabs <3